Well.. I finally fucking got my Osode... after all the waiting and drama and bullshit from other linkshells.. it's mine..I was so happy. Among other news I got 90 alchemy as well this weeking but because of my rank in alchemy I was unable to obtain my GP item :
But now for all the fans.. here is a few screens of my adventures.. and of my newly obtained Kirin's Osode. My Character is Aoikaoru. Level 75 (max level) Ranger and Ninja.. most the pictures are of me on Ranger but a few were me on Ninja.. so here we go...


This is my Character in all it's glory.. followed by the stats on the osode and a few others.



This is the final battle for Chains of Promathia Missions..where you fight litterally in heaven.. it was very cool music and a VERY cool floor hehe..followed by me and some friends just running around in a place labeled Sea. It's actual name is Al'teau but everything is based on water.


And last but not least.. a picture of yours truely... dead after getting my ass handed to me by 3 Notorious Monster Gods in Sea that I spawned by mistake for a mission lol.. I got pwned in a a matter of 10 seconds.. they dropped me in about 5 hits lol.. so was not cool ; ;

But that's some of it folks.... I have alot more.. I"ll post some of our upcoming dragon fights that we are going to do. Till next time.

Well the other day an old friend cancelled her account.. Berries/Hairball. She cancelled her content ID and has no intention of ever coming back to FFXI. Suraya was ok but sometimes she was just to vulger. She was basically an attention whore lol. Well on the positive side.. she did leave me with some nice parting gifts... 14mil gil, a sniper's ring (4mil value), an emperor's hairpin (5.5-6mil gil value), and a life belt (400k).. i'm selling all but the belt. And i'm giving 2 people.. mikala and karenbu 1.5mil each at her request. SO still a nice little 17mil parting gift :O
anyways.. so yea.. can't really complain about that.. leaves me 24mil in my pocket + a few extra 500k on the auction house. I spent a little bit of it recently on crafting and what not, got 88 alchemy now and got veteran status (w00t!). I also got my w2 and did my tax return last night.. I'll get back $1,016 this year (fuck yea!) and it'll be deposited into my account on Feb. 3rd (Next Friday).. a week before my paycheck ROFLCAKES and /hurray for extra monies! (BANKIN)...man i'm gonna have almost 1200 or 1300 in my account AFTER bills are all paid :O ahh.. I love tax season.. see you guys later.

Well the new meds are working kinda nice. I'm not nearly as drowsy anymore (for the most part). I 'm kinda taking care of myself better as I'm not feeling like I have to take care of everyone else around me. I started taking more naps when I feel tired and eating when I'm hungry and even trying to work on my knees not hurting as much. I still don't know if I'll continue to play softball or not.. given how I'm uncertain work can fit in the playing at 9:30pm. I always love baseball, it's one of my biggest passions but sometimes.. it's just too much. I cleaned the apt by myself yet again. I kinda went spaz on it though.. but it sucked seing as I had to go 1800's style and mop with a damn washcloth and just water from the sink and soap cause we don't have a mop. But none the less I got the kitchen, bathroom, my beedroom, living room, and floors cleaned. My room actually isn't covered with computer books and software disks/installs from trying to repair my system crash >_<.

On to FFXI news for the die hard soap fans! Last night the LS decided to do a random 2-kill Kirin visit..and we took him down easy. The only dissapointment was that I still don't have my Osode. NOT to be discouraged.. the next one to drop goes to me.. no questions, if/and/or buts about it. Nobody and I do mean NOBODY can lot with/against me. I've busted my ass for 2 years for it and god damnit this time I will earn it and obtain it. My only real complaint is that people take into effect that people "try to make what they can". Poofzilla can be a cool guy. But the guy can be a complete deucschbag sometimes. He gets lost half the time.. doesn't pay attention cause he's getting stoned off his ass, or dying for some unknown reason. Yes I know and respect that the guy only can log on when he can due to work.. so he goes when he can.. I have no problem with that.. cause it's the same situation with me. BUT I at least make a damn effort contributed to this damn linkshell to make sure it's success is somewhat existant. I help lead events.. I show up to pretty much everything.. I take whichever job I'm needed as.. no matter what.. and I do that while working full time. So who's to say I haven't earned my shit? Poof's been doing end-game for less than a year, hell maybe 6 months? and the guy is basically decked out. I've been doing it for over 2 years.. and I'm JUST now completing it -_-. Sometimes it's just a fucking joke.. but now by sunday it'll finally be coming home to me. I'll definately be posting screens of it. Tabetha your a sweetheart to be so supportive and I hope you get what's coming to you as well. Just know I wanna be there to see you get yours.

Well, I had my appointment on monday.. and they are putting me on new meds slowly.. so that I can gradually go off the Zonegran. Hopefully this works and I can stop being so worried and finally calm the hell down. Work seems to somewhat understand but I had a talk with my boss today on where I feel I belong and things to that degree. She seems to understand and she said she'll work with me and give me a new set of notes that will help reduce some errors and hopefully make things easier for me to remember. I'll update later as things progress. til next time~

Well I got a doctor's appointment scheduled for monday at 2pm. This will be a new neurologist for me so we'll see what happens. It's at a place accross from Presbyterian Hospital of Dallas. Maybe now I can figure out what in the hell is going on.

On to FFXI life, well last night was interesting... I managed to finally get my wrymal abj. hands to get the crimson finger gauntlets made.. whichI will do today/tonight. However, on the 2nd seiryu Rharptwo (one of our ninja's) called for help and things went apeshit. We all had to logout and then log back in and claim him before he despawned and then work on killing him after he regerated to full health (ugh). We somehow managed to pull it together and kill him a 2nd time. I lost the lot on the Seiryu's Sword twice (/cry). Then to byakko, which was easy but had to be the shittiest drops EVER. Poor Tabetha didn't even get to lot on a single thing she needs because they didn't drop :\ Genbu dropped a shield and that was about it.. oh and a zenith crown. Suzaku I have no idea what happened because I had to log. Then I slept past my alarm and was 40 min late to work -_-.

So I got some disturbing news researching my medicine that I take to control my epilepsy(seizures).. there are some side effects that frankly.. scared the living shit out of me. I don't think I've been this freaked out medical wise in some time.. as in.. a couple of years ago. Found out some of the following side effects:

Discouragement, feeling sad or empty, irritability, lack of appetite, loss of interest or pleasure, mood or mental changes, shakiness or unsteady walking, tiredness, trouble concentrating, trouble sleeping, abdominal pain, anxiety, difficulty with memory, dizziness, double vision, headache, loss of appetite, nausea, restlessness, sleepiness, sleeplessness, unusual drowsiness, unusual tiredness or weakness, and a few of the typical pains in joints/stomach/bad tastes etc.

So, as soon as I get medical information from Blue Cross Blue Shield to find out who the hell I can see as a Neurologist/Doctor, I have to go get a checkup and find out wtf is going on and if I'm affected or have been by this at all. I need a new blood level test as well.. I just hate going to the doctor's cause they are always so god damn negative, and treat me like I have some kind of disease that makes me "unable" or "you can't" do this and that.. and it pisses me off to no degree. It's not a disease you book-driven cocksuckers.. it's a damn condition that just makes me choose other options in life. So yea.. gonna have to fork out $40 to go see a specialist.. but.. who knows.. maybe it can make/mean the difference that keeps me from going brain dead.. or something to that degree. Later

To Tabby

You say Her Tabbi as a name, to her you are the world, and to us you are a friend.
We support you, care for you, and worry about you. Your heart is like none other, and yet people can't see that. I'll be relieved to see your ok after every day.. as does the person molded in your heart. The old saying come to mind. ."birds of a feather flock together".. you both are a perfect fit. You have my biggest support and best of wishes.. as I'll be there whenever you both need it. Brenda.. I don't know you .. but.. I kneel to your support you've given the person I love as a friend. Now Tabetha.. I guess your screenname has a true meanning.. you've finally become some's true meaning of "her tabbi".

Night all

Well this weekend I spent 90% of my time crafting on FFXI, I got my xp recapped.. got a merit point.. and went to help the LS do the hardest fight in the game.. the Ark Angel fight. However, even with some bullshit drama and blaming people over stupid shit.. I managed to stay out of it all, by sitting on my ass up there for 4 fucking hours! So I played my PS2 and got further in Shadow of the Colossus, I'm now on the 4th boss, and omg.. it's got me stumped on how to beat this guy. I managed to get Alchemy up to 86, smithing yesterday I went 12 lvls LOL, went from 16-28 in 1 day (pwned!). After I get smithing done.. It's GP time and more goldsmithing. A friend of mine recently quit the game and left me half his gil .. which was 11mil .. he had a total of 45mil he told me.. and split it with all his friends. SO I bought back my haubergeon! :D now I have all but Kirin's Osode(soon) and Koga Chainmail (will take me years to get this). I seriously think that crafting is the most relaxing thing I do in FFXI anymore. My XP pt was fun as hell.. we only pt'd for like an hour or 2.. but tabetha got her first experience with me and Juvian together rofl.. poor girl must have been all "o.o" at the rate we kill shit.. I told her we don't mess around.. me and Juvian are a 2 man static and gods at the RNG profession. I like to think that my ninja and ranger are equal.. but.. RNG is definately the most fun when it comes to obliterating shit >:D.

Go buy Shadow of the Colossus.. NOW.. I don't care if you havne't played ICO or not.. GET THIS GAME.. it's so fucking uber >.> I was in awe of the gameplay and storyline.. and the graphics made me outright drool. I'm like in a fucking movie theater it seems.. just imagine this on HD *swoon*.. here's a sample if you haven't seen anything.


all of those pictures of the game are taken from IN game battle sequence.. not a animation movie or a cutscene.. all real time.. *dool* so yea.. grab 40 bucks and try to locate this game if you have a PS2.. or I will hunt you down and beat you in the face with my keyboard.

FTW

For the win! (ftw if you didn't guess that already).. FINALLY completed CoP (Chains of Promathia).. I get to collect my uber ring after work when I get home... Rajas Ring pwn! The final fight was a fucking joke.. we went on a dry run and ended up winning rofl. My alchemy is now 81+2 and I sold 2 of my hawker's knifes to make 1 single knife and sign it myself. I'll post a picture of it later.. and after I get my ring. I finally have some fucking awesome gear and enough gil to take alchemy to 100 and probably the rest of my sub crafts. I'm sitting on 12.4 million gil atm. The story to CoP was fucking amazing.. like.. it's literally the best story in the game so far. Sea is incredible.. i'll post some screens tonight after I get home. Tabetha obtained 75NIn .. i'm so happy for her.. she strives hard to get to where she wants.. and does it with a "fuck yea and screw you" attitude rofl.. I love her. I bought a new PS2 game.. called "Shadow of the Colossus".. it's the sequel to a game called "Ico".. it's really amazing. I'm gonna play it tonight since it's free day. FFXi couldn't be going better for me right now.. well.. it could.. supposed to get like. the last 2 peace of questable/buyable gear for NIN and RNG.. so.. yea.. w00t!. Yes folks.. ultimate nerdism at it's finest. I'm gonna start looking at some more action/violent anime to recommend to tabetha heh... she's the 'i like anime secretly.. and.. it has to have blood.. and gore..yea >.>" kinda fan hehe. I can't decide what job I might take up next in FFXI.. who knows.. maybe BRD.. or .. BLM.. but.. BLM is murder and very boring.. maybe RDM.. but.. blah..we'll see. Til i find something more interesting to babble about.. peace out.