um... i dunno anymore -.-

God.. ever get that feeling your gonna be alone for almost... an ETERNITY?! shit maybe I should just become fucking gay...anywho.. today sucked.. Todd's being a douche.. Tallen is gone again somewhere.. I had to clean the whole fucking apt.. I might have to work Sat.. Running out of money til payday.. Life's a bitch.. later.

BLAH

what a slow ass fucking week...i mean god damn... not to mention the weather has been fucking with my knees insanely bad... (shakes fist at baseball). Uh.. Tallen came clean and said he pawned his stuff to make bills... thank god it wasn't drugs... work is work... uh.. EQ2 and FFXI still are the same... Tabetha still has Brenda and Mia (lucky -.-) ... Brandy might be suffering from depression of some sort.. which bothers me. Blah sometimes I don't know why I try to help her so much...feels like a lost cause but nobody .. and I do mean nobody deserves to be in that much bullshit. She told me that she had the happiest of times with her b/f (one of her ex's) doing little stupid shit... yet when it's the little things that make the biggest impression and difference.. that's my opinion.. but w/e. Uh... not much else has really gone on.. oh I'm on the Softball Team for work.. who knows how that will go. Guess i'm just babbling my thoughts out again... I need to sleep.. got work early.. night

Intuitive Process

Ever try to evaluate the way someone is and make it your daily interest? Kinda how things are going as of late hehe. There's a girl at work named Brandy who've I've become really close friends with (or so I hope). We take both our breaks and lunch together, while discussing things that involve everyday situations and life. Sex, drugs, politics, work, human behavior, relationships, past, present, and future ones at that; and of course.. everyday bullshit lol. I care for her alot since the current so called "boyfriend" of hers.. Terry.. is the world's biggest lazy asshole. One of those guys that treat their girlfriend like shit when he doesn't realize what he has in front of him is so damn great. I'll spend my day and practically my whole week to make that girl smile and feel better cause she so damn well fucking deserves it. If I ever meet this Terry guy i'd probably punch the shit out of him; right in the face to; and walk away just saying "look what you have in a relationship asshole and fix it before I do". Fuck I dunno anymore.. what the hell do I seem to blabber about now? -.-; Maybe I'm letting my emotions and caring nature get to me again as I rant and rave over another person I seem to meet.

On the game side of this journal... Final Fantasy XI is still FFXI.. nothing new really.. same bullshit.. the HNM LS i was in died.. .leader quit over a girl in the game he was in love with... when he has a girlfriend who would throw her life for him... He's in love with a damn pixel'd woman! so sad... and I didn't wanna be involved with all that shit.. so.. back to square 1 again -_-; .. Um.. Everquest II is doing ok.. me and Todd got into a new guild called Black Lotus.. it's pretty cool.. very tight worked group of funny people from texas hehe.

on a slightly scary note.. Talon was short on bills for rent... but somehow managed to get money for bills and rent.. I"m suspecting drug selling... he was a nervous wreck after him and his girlfriend broke up.. but now they back together.. I asked him about it.. but he said "gimme time and i'll explain everything" so i'll have to trust him on it. He better come clean though.. he owes me that much. Anyways.. Maybe we'll see what happens soon in the next few days.. til next time