Reflection

I was listening to a NIN song earlier.. (well..the one I love most.. "Right Where It Belongs")..and a certain piece of words in the lyrics caught my attention...and got me thinking pretty heavily.

[And if you look at your reflection..is it all you want to be?] now ask yourself this question..honestly, and tell me the anwer.

Now for my answer... which is no. This happens to the answer because, I know that alot of times I can be "that" much better at things. However..It's not that I want to improve for other people..but to improve for ME! (that's right.. fuck all you people that think the world bows down to your existance.) Now here is a segment of "reality check" for some people.. nothing is as it seems.. so go do some self-analysis and see what you can improve..cause NOBODY is perfect. Opinions can fly in every direction now..and i'll welcome them with open arms..but I'll be damned if someone goes on a critisism ranting...this isn't the place for it. On to some good stuff though...

Nothing still from Allen or any of the other jobs..after the numerous hours I spent today contacting all the places I applied to..to get a status update.. (/sad). Tabetha has got to be the most fun person i've probably spent time with talking to. Anything goes as a topic conversation pretty much..and it's completely awesome to find a friend that is that open to topics.. (sex, religion, education, life, politics, human behavior...everything). Mary got 71 finally on her Red Mage in FFXI (yay!~) , Tabetha got genkei 3 (limit break 3) as well.. (/praise), and as for my FFXI life.. i'm still patching lol ~_~;. I'm also excited for my mom..who starts her new job for a jewelry company in a few weeks.. (grats mom!). I also got to talk to a friend of mine, Weston, and finally catch up with him on how life has treated him.. was a good half-day. So for someone who has had alot of "Downs" from life.. my "Ups" are finally showing up.. I can only really wish for the rest of them to come around... til next entry~