Relief

Ah yes, something really good for once as of late. Tabetha tracked her letter/money that she sent Mia, and she signed for it.. so..at least we know she's alive/existant. I'm really happy for her, so I hope that she can at least talk to her and make her stop worrying so much. Tabetha will always care for someone she feels close to..and that's what makes her awesome. Sure tabetha is fucking gorgeous...but if words can describe her personality...there is none. That's how much she means to me as a friend..and no matter how much she's gonna deny that she's "nothing special"..is bullshit.

[and yes tabetha, I know your gonna read this..and still deny what I say..but I think it's the truth]

I also wish I could find a way to maybe talk to Brenda, who's been there for her as a good friend that she is. Simply to put it...because I can't (live to far away). But if I knew where she lived...I'd go to her in a heartbeat..so.. Thanks Brenda, for being an awesome person to her..you have my gratitude. I try to be as supportive to tabetha as I can..but sometimes it's just not enough.. cause being alone sucks ass..I should know (maybe it's my own fault..who knows..who cares). Alot of the times I put myself last...and put friend's in front of me..mostly cause of who I am..and how my parents raised me..but also cause it's my own damn choice to. If you don't like it..fuck you.

Anyways, I just hope that tabetha gets to talk to mia..and stop having to panic over her.. as much as she has..but that's because she loves her (if that's the right word.) As for me..well..I e-mailed city of allen again..to see how the update status goes..still nothing so far..so I'll keep hoping.. heh.

Tabetha when you read this... get some sleep please... and hope you have some non-existant stress..and hope you find some peace and a bit more happyness this week..

~til next time